GOALS, LENT, LIFE

Well as always there is a VERY long absence between blogs. I always think of all these things that I want to blog about but the energy it takes to open up my computer and write it all down seems to be too much at times. Pathetic I know.

I currently even try to stray away from getting on my computer at all except to watch an episode of The Office on HULU. I feel like I am in a place where I am moving away from technology and more towards face to face interaction. I am happier around people, I am happier when I am not stuck on a computer, so therefore I am trying to spend my time away from the internet.

I am writing this in the Teen Center at the Y because it is full of yelling kids and not in a quiet coffee shop that is playing Coldplay over and over. It brings me more happiness to be around the chaos I guess. Things you learn about yourself as you get older.

Speaking of getting older I had a birthday last week and hit the milestone of 31. I handled it much better than I expected. Birthdays are usually a really tough time for me. But my friends made me feel loved, I was able to keep busy, and overall I just felt very blessed all day. So a big thanks to everyone who came to the house last Thursday and made me feel SO very loved and appreciated.

I set some goals at the beginning of the year. They mainly had to do with me embracing the things that bring me joy and make me happy and eliminating the things that don't. As most of you know I have been walking the life of a vagabond for the last 3 years. As Jerry says, I have made a career out of not having a career. I have tried over and over again to find the full time, steady job that might be the perfect fit. And over and over again it is made VERY clear to me that it is not the current direction God has for me. I am not sure why... I cannot see that the end goal to all of this. But I am continuing to be taken care of by Him and am going to remain faithful to what He places in front of me. I feel like there is a greater reason why I am able to live a life that is very free. I am hoping that my goal of spending time in Hawaii, New Zealand, and Australia will come to fruition at the end of this year. I have wanted to travel there for so long and really besides money there is just no other reason why I shouldn't do it.

For Lent this year I have decided to give up sugar and laziness. Sugar because I think it messes with my energy and laziness because as Lecrae says "Don't wanna waste my life". I don't know if any of you saw the episode of Secret Millionaire last Sunday but there was a non-profit on there that is almost identical to the one I have dreamed of creating here in Nashville. I am hoping to go visit them and see all the ends and outs. Would be exciting!

Last but not least if you think of it.. please keep my dad in your prayers over the next few days. Would be greatly appreciated. I know this blog has been all over the place. I will try and make them more succinct in the future. Much love.

Birdie